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what kind of person do i want to be?・6/18/2026
is self-help toxic? maybe just a little bit?
i don't entirely disagree with criticisms of the genre, i understand why people have strong feelings about it. bad advice can be very harmful. i think there's some nuance, we have to be critical of the things we read. i say take what's helpful and leave the rest behind. call it corny, call it whatever you want, but these books have been helping me sort through some pretty deep-rooted shame and self-hatred:
radical kindness: the life-changing power of giving and receiving
go higher: five practices for purpose, success, and inner peace
coffee self-talk: 5 minutes a day to start living your magical life
all of these titles have a common theme- self-compassion and positive self-talk. these books have helped me come up with some positive phrases that i try to write down in my notebook every day and re-read when i am feeling depressed or anxious. here are some of them:
i am kind, beautiful, and generous.
i am a caring person who loves deeply.
i am excited about any and all opportunities that today will bring.
i can make today a good day. i am powerful.
i attract all that i desire: love, care, kindness, compassion, stability, creativity, health, and wellness.
is it all bs? maybe! but it makes me feel a little happy inside when i read it, even if i don't always believe it. and maybe the more i practice, the more i'll believe? i just want to know what it would be like to love myself.
ok thx bye ♡♡♡♡♡
i don't entirely disagree with criticisms of the genre, i understand why people have strong feelings about it. bad advice can be very harmful. i think there's some nuance, we have to be critical of the things we read. i say take what's helpful and leave the rest behind. call it corny, call it whatever you want, but these books have been helping me sort through some pretty deep-rooted shame and self-hatred:
radical kindness: the life-changing power of giving and receiving
go higher: five practices for purpose, success, and inner peace
coffee self-talk: 5 minutes a day to start living your magical life
all of these titles have a common theme- self-compassion and positive self-talk. these books have helped me come up with some positive phrases that i try to write down in my notebook every day and re-read when i am feeling depressed or anxious. here are some of them:
i am kind, beautiful, and generous.
i am a caring person who loves deeply.
i am excited about any and all opportunities that today will bring.
i can make today a good day. i am powerful.
i attract all that i desire: love, care, kindness, compassion, stability, creativity, health, and wellness.
is it all bs? maybe! but it makes me feel a little happy inside when i read it, even if i don't always believe it. and maybe the more i practice, the more i'll believe? i just want to know what it would be like to love myself.
ok thx bye ♡♡♡♡♡
made it to the other side・6/16/2026
i haven't updated my site since last year!!! so much has changed. it feels weird to read my previous entries. it's almost like those words came from an entirely different person. maybe that's sort of true? i have changed, for better or worse. my life is totally different now and far from what i expected, but i am trying to stay positive and be grateful for it all.
i would not have survived the past few months without my family. they have held me up and supported me through some of the most difficult moments of my life. over the holidays, my partner and i decided to end our 10-year relationship. i'm still processing that. this decision led to me moving back in with my parents, which has been a major adjustment after being on my own and having so much freedom and independence. but i am incredibly lucky, because i have a good relationship with both my mom and my dad. my brother still lives at home too and we get along really well. it's honestly been very healing to be back home with them. i'm staying in the basement and it's working out well for now. it is temporary.
while moving, i was also finishing up my MSW. i graduated in may, and i'm so happy to be able to put that behind me. i'm very thankful for the experience, even though it didn't lead me to school social work like i planned. right now i'm still working in public libraries, but in a full-time position with a focus on social work- it's really a dream role. and who knows what the future could hold! i'm excited for any and all opportunities that may be ahead.
some days i feel like a failure. sometimes i feel resentful that life doesn't look the way i planned. i grieve the future i dreamed about. but i try to stay hopeful, because what if i am paving the way for a better life? beyond what i imagned for myself?
i have struggled emotionally these past few months. i really turned inward to try to get myself through it. i'm sorry to my friends and family who haven't heard from me much, or at all. i'm sorry to the people i have hurt and disappointed. in the thick of it, and even sometimes now, the days just feel like something to "get through." even the simplest tasks take so much energy. you know how it is, when everything just feels really hard. i cry a lottt. i miss my cat, who is living with my ex-partner and well taken care of and i get to visit every once in a while. but despite all the pain, i am getting through it!
some people have told me i will come out on the other side feeling better than i ever have. while that hasn't been true for me yet, i'm holding on to hope that i've made the right choices for myself and brighter days are ahead. something that's helping me a lot is journaling and positive self-talk, as corny as it may sound. i'm reading a couple books right now that have been giving me peace and comfort. i'll try to share those later if i can start updating here regularly again.
i really appreciate you taking the time to read this. i hope i don't make everything sound super bleak. this is just the journey i'm on for now ♡
ok thx bye ♡♡♡♡♡
i would not have survived the past few months without my family. they have held me up and supported me through some of the most difficult moments of my life. over the holidays, my partner and i decided to end our 10-year relationship. i'm still processing that. this decision led to me moving back in with my parents, which has been a major adjustment after being on my own and having so much freedom and independence. but i am incredibly lucky, because i have a good relationship with both my mom and my dad. my brother still lives at home too and we get along really well. it's honestly been very healing to be back home with them. i'm staying in the basement and it's working out well for now. it is temporary.
while moving, i was also finishing up my MSW. i graduated in may, and i'm so happy to be able to put that behind me. i'm very thankful for the experience, even though it didn't lead me to school social work like i planned. right now i'm still working in public libraries, but in a full-time position with a focus on social work- it's really a dream role. and who knows what the future could hold! i'm excited for any and all opportunities that may be ahead.
some days i feel like a failure. sometimes i feel resentful that life doesn't look the way i planned. i grieve the future i dreamed about. but i try to stay hopeful, because what if i am paving the way for a better life? beyond what i imagned for myself?
i have struggled emotionally these past few months. i really turned inward to try to get myself through it. i'm sorry to my friends and family who haven't heard from me much, or at all. i'm sorry to the people i have hurt and disappointed. in the thick of it, and even sometimes now, the days just feel like something to "get through." even the simplest tasks take so much energy. you know how it is, when everything just feels really hard. i cry a lottt. i miss my cat, who is living with my ex-partner and well taken care of and i get to visit every once in a while. but despite all the pain, i am getting through it!
some people have told me i will come out on the other side feeling better than i ever have. while that hasn't been true for me yet, i'm holding on to hope that i've made the right choices for myself and brighter days are ahead. something that's helping me a lot is journaling and positive self-talk, as corny as it may sound. i'm reading a couple books right now that have been giving me peace and comfort. i'll try to share those later if i can start updating here regularly again.
i really appreciate you taking the time to read this. i hope i don't make everything sound super bleak. this is just the journey i'm on for now ♡
ok thx bye ♡♡♡♡♡